How death may hold the answers and why we are so much more than we think.
By Dr. Haile Michaelson, Founder of SoulStrong
There is this thread in mainstream healing that could be called ‘enoughness’. Posts and shares about ‘I am enough’. My gut reaction to these, is always, ‘NO, you are way more than enough!’ You are amazing, perfect and whole! You just forgot this when you became embodied…’
At the age of 16 I was in the deep throws of an eating disorder, and a true angel found me, brought me to help, and scooped me up under her wings. She became a kind of guide and angel on earth for me as I gradually clawed my way out of the abyss I was in. Over many years ongoing, she was an incredible mentor to me, supporting me through many levels of healing, and all kinds of real world decisions. In my second year of naturopathic medical school, she didn’t feel well, and was then diagnosed with cancer, with a very tough prognosis of only 5 weeks.
I had the chance to visit her towards the end and at the very last days. One week before she passed I travelled to see her, and she told me that at night she was already journeying between the earth plane and the other side. At that time I didn’t have any extra training in mediumship, but I could see her soul was less embodied. I could see my own version of auras and her aura to my perception had become way bigger, and was above her body. She wasn’t well, but was at home, and she told me that on the other side, when you arrive there, you are completely accepted, like as though you are taken into the arms of a white light hug, and you realize that you were already whole and you feel non-separate and full acceptance, meaning loved.
She made me close my eyes and we sat together, as though she knew I would be able to feel what she meant if I held her hand and closed my eyes with her. And in fact, I could! In those moments, I had a glimpse of the feeling she described, a kind of new of understanding wholeness, and having been only a few years out from my own eating disorder enveloped experience of feeling totally broken, hollow and empty inside, I realized, what if we are all just souls connected to a source like a thread, and we mistakenly all feel incomplete. And we feel incomplete because we feel alone, and any kind of abandonment in the human life reinforces this mental train of thought. We feel separate because we have skin, and we mistakenly believe we are a disconnected entity.
I remember thinking, all the pain and suffering that I went through from feeling I wasn’t enough, could it have been different? Could we all be taught and shown that we are enough, we are more than enough because we are in fact whole at all times.
And how ludicrous it would be if we live like this grasping to feel better, because nobody taught us otherwise or how to connect to earth and others and see we are whole, to then find in the moments of dying that we just didn’t know, weren’t taught, couldn’t figure it out…
It hit me in this deep way. I knew I would return to this and figure out how to make change here.
I then at age 30 sadly experienced my dad’s death and his last days in an ICU unit after some cardiologists made a mistake doing a procedure that should have been no issue and instead led to sepsis and 4 days later his death. When my sister and I flew across the country and arrived in his ICU room, he recognized us and could only repeat ‘I’m so sorry’. He very soon after was put on life support, and machines took over sustaining his life. After two days of progressively getting worse, there was an evening when I knew the he had passed, as I woke up in a state of FEAR that I hadn’t ever felt except for as a small child with a horror type nightmare. In my dreams that night I knew HE was terrified, but my own wisdom knew about the wholeness and the connectedness that was waiting for him. I knew from before, that he would be waiting for a feeling of wholeness on the other side. I knew that the description of ‘peace’ as we say rest in peace, had something to do with his wholeness.
When I arrived at the ICU the next morning, his body was still breathing and his heart beating, but he had left. The room, was quite literally only me, and a body that had been my dad’s. There was no aura, and there was no life force. When we turned the machines off, his chest lowered with his body’s last breath, and his body, as if storing the last emotions of regret and ‘I’m sorry’, cried ONE tear from one eye. An ICU nurse stood there with us. The first thing I said to her, was ‘do bodies usually cry?’ She said no, and began to cry as well. We all cried for a moment, and his body was so still. I was imagining the memories within the tissues of his body, the emotions, the traumas. I was thinking about how his life had some very hard times and some very deep wounds and traumas were in there, but I knew that he would see he was whole, and he had never been alone, because he had been connected to that source, that light, that love all along.
I had the chance to talk to that ICU nurse over those days as well and she told most people who are clinically dead, and brought back, don’t say ‘thank you for saving my life or bringing me back’, but rather, ‘Why did you bring me back?’ or something along those lines. I could relate to this in fact, because most of my life had an underlying feeling of ‘I want to get out of here.’ too. Where ‘here’, was the experience of being in my body, this physical experience and also all of life’s experience of suffering and pain.
After that, I couldn’t let go of wanting to reverse the disconnect, the broken feeling and the lack of wholeness that all of us as humans seem to feel.
Perhaps, I wondered, if those who go there for 2-5 minutes and return to the ICU thanks to medical intervention, can’t help but want to go back because the feeling of wholeness and connectivity is our literal DEEPEST DESIRE as embodied souls.
These moments, and this insight changed how I saw everyone.I began to see every person as whole, and already connected, and I began to realize our lives here are full of so much suffering derived from what I think seems to be feelings of being:
not good enough,
not whole and
Over the last 20 years and the mind body soul quest that I set out on, I have put together this kind of flow on how to move to wholeness which inherently also brings connectivity, and acceptance.
To see through this, we need to start at the beginning. Let’s just assume SOUL is an extension of a greater SOURCE (whichever version of higher power you chose) and like a cord and is still connected energetically….
Just as the plants have been now proven to be interconnected by a fungal ‘internet’ that shares molecules and information under the forests ground, we too, I believe, will one day prove that we are interconnected via an energetic network.
SOUL meets BODY, and for some, there is a basic discomfort that exists from the start, a feeling like the body is encapsulating them or restrictive in some way.
A physical skin is interpreted by the human mind, as a barrier, and as separateness.
The MIND begins to do its usual meaning making, and we create meaning and tell stories from the feeling of separateness that we are disconnected.
At the same time we become less connected to our mothers and become a little functioning human. Aloneness in various ways by others happens to each of us at some point. We begin to stack up the following:
We are within our skin so we are a-lone entity. This could be experienced as ALONENESS & SEPARATENESS.
We are not aware of being fully connected, maybe to our mothers or others around us or the earth, meaning we feel DISCONNECTED.
We have life experiences of pain, and suffering and stress and abandonment. This is understood as NOT ENOUGH, or NOT BEING WHOLE, or as being BROKEN, UNHEALED etc.
We Operate from this place because we aren't taught otherwise. This learning starts at birth, from being in a body it spirals up pains and versions of suffering to lead to an endless endeavour to 'try to feel':
This attempt is addictions, it’s shopping, it’s weight loss, it’s any kind of grasping, self-palliating, numbing, coping.It’s the searching for new things, new diets, new plans, new people, new partnerships, new anything to find connectivity, to feel acceptance, and to feel ‘enough’ or whole.
DEATH, IN MY VIEW, IS A
DEFINED MOMENT IN TIME, OF
EXPANSION INTO THE
AWARENESS THAT WE ARE ALWAYS AND ALREADY ARE
WHOLE, CONNECTED AND ACCEPTED.
So the insanity here is that we may be waiting until we die to remember the truth.
We are living a life trying to feel and know our truth, but we can’t hear and know it unless we ignite our intuition and listen to our souls guidance.
Our intuition already knows that we are WAY MORE THAN 'I AM ENOUGH'. In fact it knows that we are wholly entirely extensions of light and love and we are already connected.
Think about it! If when die, and then feel accepted in this re-connect, then we MUST now find our way to this reconnect here and now, to actually evolve as a group.
And maybe this is our work, to remember we are whole and connected even when embodied.
The question becomes, How do we do this?
At SoulStrong we teach intuition, and this is the answer, in a specific series.
Here is a summary of steps, which our programs incorporate.
WHOLENESS, FREEDOM, TRANSFORMATION AND HEALING REQUIRE A RECONNECT FIRST.
TO RECONNECT WE MUST GET INTO OUR BODIES FIRST.
WE TEACH BECOMING COMFORTABLE IN YOUR SKIN BY TEACHING SOMATIC EMBODIED MEDITATIONS, TENSION RELEASE, EMOTIONAL RELEASE WORK AND LEARNING HOW TO BECOME AWARE OF YOUR BODY. WE TEACH MEDITATIONS FOR TENSION RELEASE LAYING DOWN, AND WE BEGIN WITH COMFORT AS A GATEWAY.
WE WORK THROUGH BUILDING RESPECT FOR THE BODY BY OPENING UP YOUR MISSION AND PURPOSE, YOUR REASONS TO BE HERE IN THE PHYSICAL FORM.
WE HELP YOU RECONNECT YOUR BODY TO EARTH AS AN EXTENSION OF THE LIFE ON THIS PLANET. RECONNECTING YOUR ENERGETICS TO THE EARTH'S ENERGY IS THE FIRST STEPS IN FEELING CONNECTED ACCEPTED AND WHOLE. HEALING ENERGY IS THE SAME AS EARTH ENERGY. HEALING BEGINS. WHOLENESS BECOMES ACCESSIBLE AT ANY TIME AND AT ALL TIMES WHEN THIS RECONNECT IS IN PLACE.
WE TEACH QUIETING THE MIND VOICE SO THAT WE CAN HEAR SOUL VOICE & INTUITION. WE SHOW YOU HOW THE SOUL SPEAKS TO US VIA THE BODY. WE MUST LEARN TO LISTEN TO THE BODY WITH SO MUCH ATTENTION AND RESPECT. SOUL VOICE WILL SHOW YOU THAT YOU ARE CONNECTED AND WHOLE.
WE HELP YOU ACTIVATE YOUR INTUITION - BEGIN TO FOLLOW AN INTUITIVELY DIRECTED LIFE. THIS LEADS TO MORE REST, THE RIGHT DECISIONS AROUND FOOD, SUPPLEMENTS, RELATIONSHIPS, LIFESTYLE, AND HEALING BEGINS.
WE TEACH HOW TO WORK WITH TRUST - BY FOLLOWING INTUITION AND BUILDING TRUST GRADUALLY. ALIGNMENT BEGINS.
WE HELP YOU SETTLE INTO KNOWING WHAT WE CALL ‘THIS IS ME, I AM THIS’. YOU ARE HERE IN THIS TIME AND YOUR BODY FOR A REASON. YOU CAN STAND TALL IN YOUR BODY, AND IN YOUR LIFE AND ACCEPT YOURSELF FIRST. CONFIDENCE ARISES. ACCEPTANCE BEGINS. THIS SHOWS YOU, YOU ARE WAY MORE THAN ENOUGH, YOU ARE PERFECT AND WHOLE AND CONNECTED.
The thing is, the body as an extension of EARTH is just programmed to grow and create life. The body wants to live and heal. The soul as an extension of a greater source wants to elevate and seeks higher vibrations, meaning expansion and upward growth.
Intuition is the link that brings us to understand the inherent WHOLENESS that is already there. Intuition is also the way soul and body light the way to feeling connected, and accepted via connection
SoulStrong’s mission is to ignite intuition and move us forward.
Imagine if as a species we made this shift now instead of after we die. Everything would change.
Let's get to it together.